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uhhh don't pay attention to it if we don't know each other rlly, its just a my fucking spiritual crap coming thru the last few months and I don't really quite have where to share it/to who?? so I don't know if its- I don't know if what the fuck i were feeling those past few weeks is accurate, I dont know why the thoughts of this specific person came back, i dont know if its a trigger ot a sign? i watched a tarrot reading, pattern app set my timing on the date of me and my so getting together (5th of may) and Im really quite confused of all the messeges that I we're getting thru april. I don't know if im letting go, I dont know how it would go forward. I don't know the future. I'm confused, I don't know if it matters, I don't know if its just my wounded inner child triggers, I am just so done with all of this negative energy around. I wanna be GOOD with myself! I'm sorry if it sounds selfish. I wanna put it all behind. I wanna feel alive again. I don't know if you we're following me, I don't know if you'll ever see this but I am so terribly sorry of what happened, I felt awful those past few years after what happened. I'm taking all the blame on myself but I was just a dumb child with almost no friends who wasn't aware I was hurting you. After we last texted each other I pretty much mirrored your energy, being pretty much simmiliar to who you we're when we meet. I didin't understood your situation well enough. I know this now, now I understand. Maybe I didin't knew much about other than your name or age but I really thought about you all those years and I tried to find you thru a lot of means but it never worked out. You gave me hinch that I should get into MLP, that i should start drawing. I really appreciate that! You don't even know how much. I still keep it dearly to my heart, something I never forget, something that'll I always gonna be grateful for! No matter where you are now, I'm really proud of you. I hoped all those years we could reunite, forgive our faults. I don't know if theres gonna be a chance to do that. I hope youre safe, I hope you found friends, I hope you found your happines. I am Kamila, I am Nikola, I am myself. I am William. I am Lavender. I am so sorry.

I don't know how y'all make stable backstories/personalities for your characters??? like bruh I literally change my oc's backstory and personalities like at least once a month/once a few months??? like, im so undecided that I changed my comfort oc backstory and personality once again this month, I liked it for few days and then I got bored of it and I'm already thinking about changeing to something else?? My Phill literally went from cursed murderer to a math teacher, to a cute gentle caring man to spoiled assasin and now I'm changing him again to something else?? : |

he hot tho A- [yes hes my main sona]